HAH.

i only wanted khai as a fren. i did not dare dream of it being more. and he tot otherwise.

i lost 2 good frens in a week. in a week. losing two friends in a week hurts as much as losing a bf. i never knew. maybe its bcos i treasure frens alot.

u noe what hurts khai?
i never wanted us to be more then frens. i noe whu i am, and im a far cry frm the sweetness that u want. but i treasured u as a fren. when i said i opened up to u, i didnt mean fuly. but wat i noe ppl alreadi noe, i told u too. u were just a reali nice fren i tot id like to treasure..ttz all. but i didnt want to tell u everytime u told me to go away cos i was shocked. shocked tt u considered me fer a flighty moment. shocked tt i din even sae anything and yet ur rejecting me.

im nt like the others who beg fer ur love. i kinda fig out my relationship life.. and i noe what kind of ppl i will attract.

this is why it hurts.
1) ur crying every day cos u tink uve moved on but ur heart doesnt speak what ur mind says. and ur tears are what causes ur eyes to get poorer. its a scientific research.
2) u tot tt i still like u. i was just kidding after a few days. khai, i noe whu i am. if i dwell on my desires, i will never move on.
3) sometimes, moving on, will help u tink how to get nad back. mving on may help u improve what nad tot u lacked. oppurtunities never die in love. seriously, fate is what decides in the end.
4) u cycle urself, wit ur frens, wtv just to clear ur mind. ur nt conc on ur cycling and i fear of accidents that may happen. sometimes, frens care.

and when frens care and dey find out u dun treasure it, dey get hurt and sometimes they never come back.
its nt wrong to always keep a lookout for her. but its wrong to stay in a dilemma. try praying for Allah to show u the correct path, nt to beg for nad back.

hurt is part of a man's character. w/o it, there wud b too much pride, too much ego, too much laziness and too much laughter.

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thanks for the entry, whoever you are.

speaks my mind.

and when frens care and dey find out u dun treasure it, dey get hurt and sometimes they never come back.

=(